Boundaries

Yes, we all have them. Boundaries, lines in the sand, limitations, restrictions, whatever you call them. I have several boundaries in my life that I have pledged to never cross and others that I have imposed for others, whether they be unspoken or plainly stated. For instance, I never turn my car radio above level 30. Why? I have no idea. There was no instruction manual that told me not to ever turn it above 30, nor does the knob stop turning at level 30. It's just a self imposed limitation that I have set for myself and it upsets me when Jason gets in my car and jacks the radio up to level 35. I refuse to go in a store if they close in 10 minutes. Again, there is no law that says I can't do this, it's just another one of my quirks that I live by. I have a hard time watching movies or listening to music unless I do it in alphabetical or chronological order. When a sequel comes out I can't watch it until I can get caught back up by watching the first, second, third or whatever. That's not necessarily a boundary, but you get the picture. I'm pretty weird about a lot of things. Now, when it comes to other people and certain things in my life, I have boundaries as well. Kind of like knowing someone is fat but never actually saying it out loud to that person. Or how about thinking some other guy is attractive but not saying that to someone else's husband or my own. Do you get the drift here? I shouldn't have to spell out these boundaries or draw an actual line in the sand. Some lines should never be crossed and if they are then trust and friendships can be lost. Maybe not forever, but it definitely puts some distance there. I really try my hardest to respect my friends and family's privacy and I try really hard to respect those common boundaries that every unique person has. We all know that Jason is a germaphobe and the thought of sharing a drink or food with anyone makes him literally sick. So, knowing that this is his boundary, I never push it. I don't force him to share a drink with Karegan or push him into trying that new fruity drink of my sisters. That's just out of courtesy because I know that's important to him. So, because I feel like I try my hardest to respect other people it really upsets me when someone blatantly crosses the line over and over again with no remorse, no apology, nor any acknowledgment that they have done anything wrong. Let's just pretend like nothing happened and go on with it! Whatever. I'm pissed, I don't think I'm gonna get over it anytime soon and I will NEVER trust this person again. I can't hold a grudge for very long no matter what but I can say right now I am very hurt. The second verse to this same song hurt my feelings more than made me mad. I know none of this makes sense, I just needed to vent. I'm not the kind of person who can intentionally hurt someones feelings so I'll just leave it at that. No finger pointing, no name calling; I'm better than that.
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