me

I love the mountains, the cold weather and winding roads. I love my niece, 5th Avenue candy bars and Funyuns. I love movies and songs that make me cry. I like to be alone sometimes. I love the Karate Kid movies, especially the second one. I like country and rock music from the 80's. Sometimes I like to sit down and remember things that happened a long time ago that made me happy. I find myself missing someone from my past on a daily basis, from co-workers to ex-boyfriends. I miss my best friend, Shelley and how she knew me even when I didn't understand myself. I love getting excited about a good hockey game. I love baked potato soup from Bennigans and mushrooms any way they are prepared, especially raw. I got married barefooted because I hate shoes. I like to make people happy and I want everyone to like me. I cry for no reason at all pretty often. I love Gossip Girl and Big Brother. I own every GameBoy ever made and I have my Papa's original one with tape on the screen. I love Daisy so much that I don't know if I could survive without her. I am a terrible cook and house cleaner. I have a love/hate relationship with my little house. I love my flower garden, especially my hibiscus. Jason and I own 4 cars and a motorcycle even though we don't need them. I have a 1967 boat that will probably never see the water. My dad collects camping trailers and I think it's funny. I read Perez Hilton everyday. My house is gray on the front and peach in the back because we never got around to finishing painting it. My brother lives across the street from me. I wish I had a closer relationship with my nieces and nephews and I wish they loved and admired me like they did when they were little before I ever disappointed them. My boss has forgotten Secretary's Day for two years in a row and it really hurt my feelings. I love getting out of the shower and into a freshly made bed. I love pitch black rooms. I am addicted to my laptop, I even watch tv and movies on it. I have 2 sets of Bose earphones that are the best. I love my iPod. I have 4 sets of the State Quarter collections and I collect flat pennies. Even after 8 years I still love my wedding rings. I wear the same Fossil watch everyday for two years until I get a new one for my birthday. I am devastated that October Road got cancelled….I wish I could live in Knights Ridge and have a best friend like Hannah. I watch Jon & Kate Plus 8 and I think Kate is mean to Jon. I am excited about starting a book club. I wish I could make everything okay for my little brother. I wish money grew on trees. I love the fall season best of all. Some days I wish I could get in my car and drive away and never look back. I miss Starting Over and all the drama. I often wonder if anyone is truly happy or is it just an act. I miss Louis Dubuque even though he was hard to work for. I wish Santa Fe was still open and Burger King still sold tacos. I wish I could sleep late everyday and never gain another pound. I wish I wasn't scared of spiders and that I could stomach onions. I wish my church was like it used to be….like home. I wish I had the courage to move. I hope one day we can live in a bigger house and have a better life. I need for Jason to be in my life forever and that I leave this world before he does. I want my parents and Ryan and Lisa to live forever. I wish Karegan looked a little bit like me. I hope one day I can dance and not feel stupid. I love soft blankets and squishy pillows. I love the color burgundy and Capri Sun. I could eat Caesar Salad everyday. I love puppy breath. I love being in love. I wish someone thought I was special besides my family. I hope I count for something. I want to go back to college. Sometimes I want to start over and try to do it better. I wish I could take it back. I love to crochet. All my movies are alphabetized and logged in my computer. I love to play the Sims 2 and Animal Crossing: Wild World. I love pizza and black olives. I want to build furniture. I wish my car was clean and my grass was mowed. I wonder if anyone will ever understand me. I wonder if I will ever understand me.
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